. . s t a r s h i n e . .

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 17:52:22 GMT

We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.

Peace, love, & happiness.

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 11:14:27 GMT

Like a year 1968 house painted yellow on the inside, with round windows, and shag carpet.
With the sun shining in.
It's Lovely. It's Lovely.

WATCH DEGRASSI:
http://www.tv-links.co.uk/show.do/1/1913 !!! ♥

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 00:31:37 GMT

Older man: "I'm eight and a half inches."
Cartman: Whoa, this guy's tiny. He must be a dwarf.
Cartman:[types] "I don't want to be friends with a midget. Midgets piss me off." Frowny-face.

Til kingdom come

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 09:27:13 GMT

Steal my heart, and hold my tongue.
I feel my time, my time has come.
Let me in, unlock the door,
I never felt this way before.

And the wheels just keep on turning,
the drummers begin to drum.
I don't know which way I'm going,
I don't know what I've become.

Hold my hand inside your hands,
I need someone who understands,
I need someone, someone who heals.
For you, I've waited all these years.

For you I'd wait 'til kingdom come.
Until my day, my day is done.
Oh say you'll come and set me free -
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me.

In your tears, and in your blood.
In your fire, and in your flood.
I heard you laugh, I heard you sing,
I wouldn't change a single thing.

The wheels just keep on turning,
the drummers begin to drum.
I don't know which way I'm going,
I don't know what I've become.

For you I'd wait, 'til kingdom come.
Until my day, my days are done.
Oh say you'll come and set me free -
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me.
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me.

I AM SEEING DECAPITATED (AGAIN, FOR THE FOURTH TIME) TOMORROW! Prepare for pictures on Tuesday!!!

and if you can't wait that long to see my silly mug with beautiful WACEK,
come to the show, and find a way to get backstage!

TA-TA.

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 00:58:15 GMT

Thu, 14 Jun 2007 05:46:13 GMT

it's almost as if my family and friends are finding any excuse to be mad at me

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 09:39:46 GMT

I am not a drug addict.
So everyone can get their cell phones
and call everyone they know
to find some new way
to twist the words that I say.

I got my nape pierced.

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 07:41:31 GMT

I must have left a thousand times
But every day begin the same
Cause there's a small town in my mind
How can leave without hurting every one who made me?
How can leave without hurting every one who made me?

Oh baby, baby it's all about the moon
I wish you wouldn't have broke my camera
Cause we're gonna get real old
Real soon

Today we're younger than we ever gonna be
Today we're younger than we ever gonna be
Today we're younger than we ever gonna be

Stop! Stop, what's the hurry?
Come on baby, don't you worry worry
Everybody not so nice nice
Everybody not so nice nice
Stop! Stop, what's the hurry?
Come on baby, don't you worry worry
Everybody not so nice nice
Everybody not so nice nice

Thought you ought to know by now
I thought you ought to know by now
Everybody not so nice nice
Everybody not so nice nice

Oh baby, baby, baby it's all about the moon

I must have left a thousand times
But there's a small town in my mind
How can I leave without hurting every one who made me?
How can I leave without hurting every one who made me?
How can I leave without hurting every one who made me?
How can I leave without hurting every one who made me?

How can I leave without hurting every one who made me?

I got a nape piercing:

It hurt, because he freehand did it, really slow. It just felt like a lot of pressure on my neck, like a thick pinch. It doesn't hurt right now, though, and I forgot how it felt, pretty much. It just feels neat. I like to rub the middle, where the bar is under the skin.

It cost me $60 ($10 tip + $50 piercing).

Happy graduation, me!

on a lighter note..

Tue, 22 May 2007 08:51:21 GMT

I won this shirt on ebay:

LED ZEPPELIN: 1972 Japan tour shirt

yay! (and for only 15 dollars!!! [including S&H])

To wish impossible things

Sat, 19 May 2007 06:10:52 GMT

Remember how it used to be
When the sun would fill the sky
Remember how we used to feel
Those days would never end
Those days would never end

Remember how it used to be
When the stars would fill the sky
Remember how we used to dream
Those nights would never end
Those nights would never end

It was the sweetness of your skin
It was the hope of all we might have been
That filled me with the hope to wish
Impossible things
To wish impossible things

But now the sun shines cold
And all the sky is grey
The stars are dimmed by clouds and tears
And all I wish
Is gone away
All I wish
Is gone away

All I wish
Is gone away

Sun, 13 May 2007 01:48:12 GMT

http://www.scribd.com/doc/5107/They-didnt-study

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 07:21:41 GMT

bobbing for apples in somalia
the man with the iron curtain is following you
no one’s coming for tea time
except my own holy ghost
you’re somewhere far probably drinking a whiskey
I dating jack daniel’s and caleb's, with miss nicky-tine,
nacho's with cocoa -- hey, to each his own.
lovely people, lovely places
I can’t remember names and I can’t remember faces
someone next door’s fucking to one of my songs

hey light fixture, you are much too bright
oh, won’t you stay with me through the night
just grab a pillow tight
and wait for the dizziness to pass
rock and roll, you ate my soul
you sucked dry my bones but you spit out my mole
I’ll always opt to fall down these stairs in the end
lovely people, lovely places
drunken faces, slurring their phrases
I’ll always opt to fall down these stairs in the end

you're so jealous, I’m so lonely
you’ll never forgive me but I love you only
I’ll always opt to fall down these stairs in the end…

you're so jealous, I’m so lonely
you’ll never forgive me but I love you only
someone next door’s fucking to one of my songs…
someone next door’s fucking to one of my songs…
someone next door’s fucking to one of MY, MY songs…
someone next door’s fucking to one of my songs…

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 17:34:42 GMT

I like lonely night time desert songs.

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 07:34:12 GMT

I fell in love and
I needed a road map
To find out where you lived
So excited now
Sleepwalking, cause I'm sleepwalking
The white trash boys
Listen to the headphones
Blasting white noise
In the convenience store parking lot
I hung around there
Wasting my time
Hoping you'll stop by
Cause I'm sleepwalking, I'm sleepwalking
A mutual friend's parents
Left town for a week
So we raided their liquor stash
And walked down by the riverside
Sleepwalking, cause I'm sleepwalking

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 07:31:49 GMT

Life inside the music box ain't easy
The mallets hit
The gears are always turning
And everyone inside the mechanism
Is yearning to get out
And sing another melody completely
So different from the one they're always singing
I close my eyes and think that I have found me
But then I feel mortality surround me
I want to sing another melody
So different from the one I always sing
But when I do the dishes
I run the water very very very hot
And then I fill the sink to the top with bubbles of soap
And then I set all the bottle caps I own afloat
And it's the greatest voyage in the history of plastic
And then I slip my hands in and start to make waves
And then I dip my tongue in and take a taste
It tastes like soap but it doesn't really taste like soap
And then I lower in my whole mouth and take a gulp
And start to feel mortality surround me
I close my eyes and think that I have found me
But life inside the music box ain't easy
The mallets hit
The gears are always turning
And every one inside the mechanism
Is yearning to get out
And sing another melody completely
Is yearning to get out
Is yearning to get out
Is yearning to get out

asilos magdalena makes me cry

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 21:29:17 GMT

Enfermo llegere
y para componerme
and de vago.
No me des tu obedencia,
porqu te enseno mi cuerpo de lodo
donde el piel estubo debil
con una hambre que no me deje cantar.

En mi vida,
el oscuro me mantiene,
cuando yo te vi
en la lluvia, me
prometiste tu sangre,
yo no me quedo.

ya que calle en este mundo
cargo una navaja, dios mio, para ti.
Cuantas veces me mordiste,
y cuantas veces yo me fui
ya no estoy enamorado
con tus mentiras
pa el infierno me duermo
porque el infierno es la unica verdad

En mi vida,
el oscuro me mantiene,
cuando yo te vi
en la lluvia, me
prometiste tu sangre,
yo no me quedo.

Estrella de la manana,
Samael te persigo a ti,
y se me quemo sin alas,
ademas me muero por ti.

+

Ill, I arrived,
And to compose myself I wandered aimlessly
Don't give me your obedience
Or else I will show my body made of mud,
Where the skin is weak,
With a hunger that wont let me sing.

In my life,
The darkness maintains me.
When I saw you in the rain,
you promised me your blood.
I will not stay.

Since cast off this world,
I hold a knife, my God, for you.
How many times did you bite me?
And how many times did I leave?
I am no longer in love with your lies.
In hell I rest,
Because hell is the only truth

In my life
The darkness maintains me
When I saw you in the rain
you promised me your blood
I will not stay

Morning star;
Samael, I pursue you
And if I am left without wings,
I will still die for you.

[I feel that this is a love song, but no one else seems to think so.]

abcdefghijklmarissa

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 05:12:27 GMT

1. Who were you with last night?
Abraham, Zara, Milo, more more more.

2. What woke you up this morning?
Abe's dad.

3. Where are you?
My house.

4. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
Hopefully.

5. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
I hugged a lot of folks.

6. When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday at K-mart.

-The PAST-

7. Ever thrown up in public?
yesyesyes

8. Passed out because of alcohol?
no.

9. Who's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
carlos mencia

10. Would you take a bullet for anyone?
I'd probably steal one for my buddies.

11. Where would you like to live?
yur howse

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
older.

14. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
somewhere 5 years into the future.

- ON MYSPACE -

15. Who is your number one?
nailah

16. Have you kissed your number one?
no

17. Who was the last person that left you a comment?
fuck if i know.

- IN GENERAL -

19. Do you like candy necklaces?
shut up

20. When was the last time you fell over or ran into something?
all day long

21. Do you listen to music every day?
do you cry everyday?

22. Do you still go trick or treating?
yup.

23. What was the last thing you ate?
your mother

24. Are you a fast typer?
no.

25. About how many people have you liked?
18 dummy people

26. What are you doing this weekend?
"nm u? ;)"

27. Whats your favorite type of SODA?
not that kind.

29. Have you ever won an award?
hecka many.

30. What do you want to do right now?
;) just kiddin.

31. Are you listening to music right now?
nay

32. Do you like someone right now?
yup

33. Whats a quote that you love?
"Your dad is your girlfriend."

34. How long 'til your birthday?
hella dayz

35. When were you the saddest in your whole life?
yesterday psyche.

36. What time is it?
hammertime

37. Do you use EBay to buy or sell?
buy buy buy

38. What makes you mad?
this

39. Have you ever had a song written about you?
not that I know of...

40. What song makes you cry?
the ones you sing

41. What song makes you happy?
hecka many

42. What do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
not yo mouf, dayeeeeng.

43. Do you have a job?
no

45. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
black az nite.

46. What makes you happy?
not this

47. Whats the next CD you're gonna get?
not anythang from kmart

[Height:] 5'8"

[Hair:] dirty

[Eye Color:] green

[Piercings:] 2

[Wearing right now?] pink floyd shirt

[What taste is in your mouth?] kool aid

A word to describe 2007? 2007

Favorite color in 2006? green, the same as it is now.

Summer 2006: summer school, gross.

My best friend(S): zara, abe, andrew, ilana, nathan, nailah

Honestly, do you miss 2006?: not at all.

Last person from your school you saw? zara

another quicker one.

Thu, 22 Mar 2007 09:32:06 GMT

Take My Quiz From TrueFalseQuiz.com
Question #1:	True	False
I have ran out of gas in my life.

Question #2:
I miss Aiko.

Question #3:
I love giant squids.

Question #4:
I hate the word \\\"diarrhea\\\", but I use it a lot.

great.

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 08:46:39 GMT

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 06:49:18 GMT

Oh man, Munther keeps calling me.

"I love you, you're so beautiful. You are so sweety. I am agey 30."

he sang happy birthday to me.

"I very very very love you."

oh god, 35 minutes talking to a middle aged Iraqi man who has been in sacramento for 2 weeks, who "very very love"s me.

:\

I keep telling him that I'm 16 and have a boyfriend.

he really doesn't care and wants me to go to a restaurant with him.

nothanks.

p.s.

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 09:20:10 GMT

good job Francis (x3) and Mari, for taking that quiz.

I don't think the pictures worked, which sort of sucks.

:\

whatevs! Thank you for being hella savage and not using the pictures to help you.

<3

yo estoy triste, pero no tengo un razon.

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 09:17:11 GMT

I hate being sad for no reason.
I am very overwhelmed with this deep depression, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with me, or around me.
I am so confused.

What is my problem?

I am even more upset with how sad I am, and the lack of reason. So I am sad because I am sad, but I am sad because I am sad. Vicious cycle.

"I eat too much because I am depressed, and I am depressed because I eat too much."

Same logic, right?

I adore my friends that don't live by the rules of the mentors: find her, feel her, fuck her, forget her.

I adore some of them that listen and try to soak in that idiotic nonsense knowledge, but that's the knowledge of someone who's going to sleep with whores the rest of their life, or at least until they're all gross, then they'll sleep with no one, and probably never get married.

But that could just be my opinion.

how non-classy.

DO IT, please.

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 08:05:36 GMT

take my quiz.

my cockatiels are so depressing sometimes.

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 17:29:26 GMT

stolen from Jamie, again.

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 04:41:35 GMT

1. Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle?
yeah, but it's more scary because I am a driver.

2. What's something you MUST do before you die?
live.

3. Are you single? Do you want to be?
yup, I don't care.

4. What's one thing you will not eat?
diarrhea

5. What color is your underwear?
black

6. When's the last time you went out of state?
december to nevada.

7. What's your birthstone?
blue topaz

8. Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
I don't like milk.

10. Can you hula hoop?
yes.

11. Have you ever crawled through a window?
many a time.

14. Any cool scars?
I have one by my eye called trail of tears, and I have one shaped like this: r on my kneecap.

15. Name an old school song you like?
all beatles.

16. Do you talk to yourself?
YEAH BECAUSE I AM cRaZy.

just kidding.

17. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
noway!

18. How much does your dog weigh?
I don't have a dog. Even if I did, I probably wouldn't weigh it.

19. Ever waxed your legs?
I've tried. It did not work.

20. Earrings or necklaces?
earrings!

21. Who have you talked to the most today?
haha grandma.

22. Who's on speed dial 5?
nobody.

24. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
:D :\ I only type with smileys. :C

25. Are your grades good?
defffffffinitely not.

26. Do you have any friends with benefits?
noway!

27. Have you ever enjoyed listening to Jack Johnson?
nope

28. Do you have a song by ozzy osborne in your library?
yes

29. Do you watch Family Guy regularly?
sure

30. Have you ever watched a little kids show?
of course.

31. What is your favorite Disney movie?
the little mermaid

32. What is your Zodiac sign?
capricorn

33. What makes you feel like a kid again?
when I wake up in my hello kitty sheets craving ice cream and soda.

34. What is your nationality?
german/spanish/native american/japanese

35. What sport do you dislike most?
everything, mainly football, I don't get it.

36. Have you ever gone scuba diving?
not yet!

37. What's your favorite smell?
woven cassis, gardenia, baking bread, roses, eucalyptus and spearmint, peppermint, rain, before the rain, being in the snow, ocean, pine, strawberries

38. Are you modest?
I couldn't tell you.

39. Do you care what others think about you?
sometimes, it depends on who's doing the thinking.

40. What do you do when your driving?
I tend to drive, and I'm always making a habit of touching the steering wheel. What's up with that?

41. Do you kiss and tell?
I tell them in case they forget (happens from time to time).

42. Do you follow college football?
I'd be running back and forth a lot, they like to throw that ball pretty far.

43. Where was the last place you went shopping?
Zumiez (totally ridiculous spelling)

44. Last time you drank alcohol?
never.

45. Favorite football team?
the kind that doesn't exist

46. Do you watch the Olympics?
hardly.

47. Last bar you went to?
the distillery, but I didn't get to go inside. I was watching the band.

48. Do you have a favorite number?
22

49. Were you an outcast in middle school?
ummmh yes.

50. Are you multitasking right now?
not really.

51. Could you handle being in the military?
noway!

52. Do you believe in Karma?
completely.

53. What is your school mascot?
dragon/phoenix/dragon

54. How is the weather today?
hot!

55. Stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone.
It wasn't my fault, but it caught on fire while I was on it. :C